Day Two

Not gonna lie, I already feel somewhat accomplished for updating this a second time. Day two is when the initial motivation wanes and yields to old unproductive routines. The hard work of replacing those with new patterns begins now.

But where to direct such work? If you want to change essentially everything where do you begin? Obviously I can't change everything immediately...an attempt would be counter-productive and certain to fail. Not should I focus on trivial/effortless changes and risk missing the point entirely. But of course I must do something. Results are motivating and change begets further change. So perhaps I should start with those entrenched patterns which impede change across a broad spectrum of behaviors.

To that end I've identified two massive issues which require immediate attention if only to remove them as excuses for further development. The first is debt consisting of credit cards, student loans, and car loans. Though hardly unique in this regard any of my efforts in the financial/career department are severely hampered by accrued debt. Having to make hundreds every month merely to service interest results in countless hours of lost energy which could otherwise be devoted to something I'm passionate about. Significant chunks of my time literally belong to corporations I don't even work for and I'm fucking tired of it.

My second issue is hearing. Or rather my gradual inability to hear properly. I'll try to be brief here but for something on the order of fifteen years I've had trouble hearing high frequency sound. It's gradually gotten worse and shows no signs of abating. It exerts a negative impact on virtually every conversation/relationship I have yet despite the repeated insistence of many I've never done a thing to address it. This despite the fact that technology exists which might solve the problem entirely. This unwillingness is completely fucking insane and almost painfully embarrassing to admit. But let this admission be the first step towards resolving it once and for all.

GOAL FOR FRIDAY SEPTEMBER 21st
Make an appointment with an audiologist AND publish plan to pay off debt!